My Week:

So I just feel like Ranting about all thing things that are going on. So you all know as it relates. I’m not looking for pity just ranting.

So When did it start Ah yes…

So I visited my grandma and noticed the her cat was looking sickly so I offered to take care of her from now on. And I did it’s been a good week with the sweet little kitty. But she had been lethargic and making messes which I expected.

Friday I had a scare at work as the producer was thinking of scrapping us all and getting a new crew that works for less. But our director defended us by telling him that we would get even more behind schedule. Which it would! It made me mad that he felt we were disposable! But now he’s a nice guy again. Really its very surreal. Fortunately for me this is just a glorified summer job or I would have been more scared. The only reason I stay is because I’m good friends with all the people there and I will miss them.

Oh did I mention I had the last straw with the camero? Yes I had been borrowing cars for the past two weeks. But that night (Friday) I got a new car! Yea *dances around* Borrowed money from a numer of family members and ended up buying the $1750 95 Nissan Altima with cash down to 8 dollars in coins. The guy I got it from was nice.

On the one hand awesome to have a car that runs and looks nice on the other hand I was moody with dramas. But I went home pet the cat and was happy.

So Saturday I discovered a number of finatial red flags won’t even go into that.
I got three new keys for my car pulled out side of my house. Got out of the car was negligent because I was frustrated about other things at the time and the door closes and I always lock the door. All of my car keys were locked in! But fortunately God is good and the door didn’t close all the way and just by was a coat hanger bent already. So after a frustrating hour with the help of clever determination and a neighbor’s plier I got it open! Yeah!

So I stride proudly into the house. Pet my kitty and waste the rest of the day being stupid in a bad mood. And I started to notice the cat was doing worse…

Sunday church was awesome. Had the air conditioning on at full blast cause I could now. Came home decided to go hang at B&N with Kristy, we got there and she noticed a strange sound from my new car. And it was leaking coolant. So I pored more in and carefully drove back home. My dad came strait there from Whittier and I spent the rest of the evening poking at the car with him until he left at 11:30. Wasn’t the hose so we think it is the water pump, Then I spent the next two hours dealing with other red flags.

At this point I know that there was a serious problem with the cat. She was barely moving. So I found a cat specialist nearby and made plans to take her there when they open at 7 am. Kristia was nice enough to offer to get up early and come with me.

So we get up, the cats looking really bad we put her in a carriage and go. We get there right as they open the nurse there was stressing major cause three people weren’t there. She delt with the people before us and when she looked at my cat she was alarmed and put her strait on oxygen in back! So we sat there me and kristy. My stomach was in knots.
Other people came in it was interesting to see the other cat lovers here some stories very bitter sweet. Then another woman came in with a dying kitten all in tears. That cat was put on life support as well. We sat there in awkward silence after kristy went to get coffee.

The vet came rushing in at 8 after having made a house call. She looked after the kitten first cause she had and appointment. The nurse had me go into another room to wait to talk to the vet. After awhile the vet came in a said that there was nothing she could do. Kidney Failure among other things… I agreed that the only thing was to make a painless out for her. I called my grandma and told her. She took it rather well. My dad started ranting about the car and I asked him if we could talk about it later. Love him but the vet is right men don’t often understand emotions or try and avoid them…

So Kristy came back I signed the release. I was glad she was there… Calico was lying on the table barely conscious. I gave her a kiss crying. I petted her as the vet injected her so she would go to sleep first.
Then she euthanized her and she was gone…I was glad that I could be the last person she knew….
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Yeah Monday sucked. I went to the DMV after forcing my tears away then went to work at 11. I was not into it. I got my work to do and told them I need to deal with stuff so I went home. I got there I was so tired and I just lay on my bed… I tried to work but I really was not that productive. I dealt with more red lights.

Melinda came home and I told her and ochien about the cat. I wasn’t emotional at that point. But I was getting a lot of hugs that day that I had a hard time accepting…

Then we got to the fact that the gas was off. A mistake on melidas part but on us as well. 4th of july confused things. So I planned how we were going to get the fixed…
I cleaned all of the kitties stuff and put it in a big pile in the middle of the floor not knowing what to do with it after that….

The next day I was also slow at work. I ended up getting away with some of my not working on Monday because we had to do a lot of cleaning and posting up of stuff and such so I didn’t have to work that much…

That night I noticed my check finally went through and I hadn’t really eated much so me and Kristy went to eat a good meal at freshworks. I picked up some much needed groceries and we went back home.

We got out of the car and there was a cat nearby. I didn’t want to scare it so I was just going to walk to my house but Kristy ended up petting it so I thought ok…was still sad though…The cat was really sweet. I got up and started going back to my apartment. Kristy picked it up but it squirmed put of her arms and I looked back and the cat was following me! I said do you want food? And the cat caught up with me and came up to the apartment. She was all skittish but I fed her and she was ravenous. After she finished she wandered around the apartment all curious. She was pretty healthy and she had no collar. She ended up making herself comfortable. I took a cold shower (no gas) and got into bed. The calico woke me up in the middle of the night purring and kneeding. It was so sweet she slept beside me then went and slept with kristy. The sweetest cat!

I so I get up all tired and head out to work and there is another calico. I say hey are you hungry? And she rushes after me. I let her in and feed her. She is ravenous. She is obviously part of the same litter as Koshi (short for Koshimoyo meaning checkered) the first cat. They hiss and be angry but I have to go.

Kristy says later that they are getting along ok though. Today was sooooo long. Couldn’t concentrate so much stuff on my mind good and bad…
So I trade cars again so that he can take it to get fixed at a better place than is near myhouse. I get home get out of the car and my rinf fingure on my right hand gets jammed and I pull it out. Blood was streaming down my hand from a split in the nail! AHHH! Is I slip in and rinse it off right away. And bandage it with anti biotic. I hope It will heal alright. Sighs. Its hard for me to type now… I hope I can draw tomorrow…

Koshi is hiding under the bed Kyoko (the newer cat) is out. Apparently Koshi doesn’t like being around other cats.

I will see of people put up signs for them. But if not I will have to give Kyoko to a rescue and plus she is pregnant glad to help her but Two cats is too much. Koshi however has my love so I hope I can take care of her. We’ll see what happenes. Its all so crazy. They are both really pretty and sweet. Both calicos!

And the FFC site is back down… complications with transferring the domains…I just can’t take it anymore I can’t maintain it anymore…sighs…

So Yeah….man …right now both good feelings make me feel really neutral and blah…don’t know how to feel….

Along with all of this I have been in a transcendental crisis of sorts…don’t know what to think about it right now….Sighs…

So yeah…crazy…..